finally, able to kick the habit off le. YES, except now got smoke on and off.. lol.. opps, not 100% successful. at least i won't be temp to smoke.

Even i do hope for the day she willing to give me that phase i hoping for. but at least for now, i can do what i can for her. at least let her live better. at least i can do things within my power for her even thought i can be like last time the way i love her and care for her. maybe she is the only 1 right for me, or maybe there are someone who is around for me. i Don't know, at least for now is for her.

Biz seem to be a good start. I will make this 1st come back a good start to fufill our dreams. have been changing myself to a better life style and also hoping to commit in drangon boat. i like the physical activities. :)

In order for a big come back, i need a larger capital hope i am able to rise that capital to clear everything once and for all. and really live with style.